When I was in college, I was one of those people that could not wake up. Ever. An 8:00am class was such a tragedy in my life that I was lucky to make it to class in my pajamas, if at all. I would literally roll out of my bed ten minutes before class, throw on a sweatshirt, and RUN, pillow lines still on my face.
So in order to help myself, I would hide my alarm clock. It wasn't enough to just turn it off (although it would turn into a nice dream about church bells and such as I slept on for another two hours), or heaven forbid I would use the snooze button and waste an entire hour in annoying 8 minute intervals. With the clock hidden, I would have to jump down from my loft bed, and run around trying to figure out which drawer I had stowed in in *this* time. The aerobic activity of leaping from the bed and dashing between piles of books and clothes was juuuuuuussssttttt enough to get me out bed for good.
I thought about this today, as I decided to hide my laptop from myself.
I have never had an addiction to anything other than coffee and my children, but I'm beginning to understand what they feel like.
When faced with a sink of dishes, two loads of laundry that have been sitting wet for long enough to require a new washing, sticky floors, and a fine layer of chaos spread over everything, it is sooooo easy to just tune it out and get on the laptop. It's a fun world on my laptop! There are grown ups there! People don't whine and tug on my pajamas there! It doesn't smell like poop or rotten food!
So when I woke up this morning, I stuck that laptop (after a quick quick micro-check on the email, for my brother-in-law's sake you know) in our office armoire and SHUT IT GOOD. I decided that I would be very productive this morning and if I was very good I could take the laptop out of bondage at 2:00pm while Lola takes her afternoon nap.
Well, Lola is napping, and here I am.
But it is 11:00am.
And it is her first nap, not her second.
It's amazing when you are used to hopping in and out of the computer how it becomes a part of the flow of your day. I *almost* got on this computer more times than I care to admit this morning. So I guess I am taking it one morning at a time, trying to be a present mom, trying to be a better housekeeper, trying not to cry that I just typed "trying to be a better housekeeper."
See you at 2:00pm!